Saturday, 30 May 2015

M.I.A (Draft)

But the worst pain of all is being in a relationship and feeling completely lost and alone. Losing yourself searching for who you think you want to be.

Nobody ever tells you how scary that is. It's all a façade of happy snap chats and showing-face together. Because deep down it seems like a substitute to real happiness, if you can fool yourself too.  That self that's slowly fading gets easier to hide away.

What is happiness now? It's just the moment right before you need more happiness. 

Then the questions arise, the doubt within the current situation, onset of desiring more happiness: is it greed? Is it addiction?
Isn't this where I'm supposed to be? 
Does this mean I've become complacent,  or maybe they are complacent?
Am I good enough? What's good enough?
Why do I feel so misplaced ? 
Misunderstood? 
Mis... Missing? 

Monday, 25 May 2015

Tearing my two selves apart

Torn between absolute selfless unconditional love, 
And the selfishness it's pain creates.

Anne Archer 
May 2015